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Jun. 21st, 2011

Sunday night I invited Leslie over to spend the night. I told her I wasnt expecting sex, I just wanted to spend the evening with her, since we were hitting it off so great on the phone. She came over, and looked amazing. She took my breath away...again...I felt so ugly and horrible..that is until she walked towards me and wrapped her arms around me and told me I looked beautiful. I almost cried. She was so sincere and ready to tell me how she felt. She sat next to me on the couch and we talked. I ended up with my head on her lap just laying there and talking. I told her I was getting tired, so I was going to head to bed. We offered her the couch, futon, or she had the option to come join us in bed. I crawled into bed with Jeff and she came in there and grinned. She said "are you sure this is okay" yeah, I am sure come snuggle. She crawled into bed and into my arms and I held her for a while, and then she kissed me.

TMI:: We ended up having insane sex. She was so good, and it was her first time. The first time with a woman is so different then with a man. She would go from being animalistic, to soft and sensual. She and Jeff of course did their thing, it was so right. It just worked. It wasnt weird or hard to keep the parties involved. Even when she was with Jeff she wanted to kiss me, to touch me. We passed out in a pretzel of bodies at 5 AM.

TMI Over

I woke up and we were all in the same position as when we fell asleep and it just felt good. I have my walls built up. This morning I was looking in the mirror...she gave me hickies..oops. She is a biter. LOL. While I was looking in the mirror she walked up behind me and wrapped her arms around me. She said "do you think you could love me" yes. YES. I know I could. Thats the scary part. I see myself falling head over heels for this girl, and that terrifies me. Its okay. I am just keeping her at arms length for a while until I feel completely comfortable. She is trying to chip away at my walls, but they are reinforced.

We are having a play date and dinner date on Wednesday. That will be fun. She is bringing her son over, and I am excited to meet him. I told her that her son is important to me. That I want her to know if we are a "trio" that he will be treated like my child. She started crying. Her exes never wanted that. She then asked me..do you want to keep me..like date exclusively? I told her yes, I do. Of course I do.

I have planned a camping trip for us when we get back from St Louis. I am so excited for it. I hope it goes well.

I will give you all a picture of her in a few..


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Jun. 21st, 2011 05:47 pm (UTC)
I hope everything works out with Leslie. Glad ya'll had fun.
Jun. 21st, 2011 06:22 pm (UTC)
i am super jealous!!!! thats fantastic!
Jun. 22nd, 2011 03:58 am (UTC)
I'm so happy for you! After reading your posts, I know you've been waiting for this for a while. I'm glad you're finally getting what you want. And I find it totally awesome that your hubs is all for it. I am jealous.
I wish I could have a girlfriend, it's been a dream of mine for forever, but my hubs is very jealous and doesn't want me having feelings for anyone else, because in his old fashioned way, its cheating to him.
A long time ago he offered to let us be swingers, but I felt that if I said I wanted that, he would think I didnt love him as I do, and that I was looking elsewhere. I don't want him thinking I dont love him. And I know that's how he'll be.
But I am very happy for you. Keep us updated! I will live vicariously through you on this one!!
Jun. 22nd, 2011 05:58 pm (UTC)
I know how you feel. At first Jeff was completely against this, until he realized how much better life is with two people loving on you. He is all for it now, we have tuffs, and jealousy along the way, but with communication we figure it out.
Jun. 22nd, 2011 07:46 pm (UTC)
i agree with this! my hubbs is the same way :/
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